First of all, I have to apologize to whoever has come to this blog in the past couple weeks. My posting has been sporadic at best and not very interesting. I am struggling to stay afloat. This pregnancy is kicking my ass and I'm only 6 weeks in.
I went to the doctor on Wednesday and I actually left feeling more anxious than before. He did an internal ultrasound and said that he thinks I may actually be less than 6 weeks, which scares me a little. The same thing happened with my miscarriage. I went in thinking of was a certain number of weeks and I wasn't. A few days later the bleeding started.
Also, the doc thought he saw two eggs!!! Yes, you read that right, two mothereffing eggs. When he moved the probe thingy around more he said it was probably just one, but that he wasn't positive. Dear blog readers, if I end up having twins you will witness the first ever virtual nervous breakdown because I WILL go crazy.
Anyway, it looks like the baby is hiding and he couldn't get a strong heartbeat so he wants me to come back in 2 weeks. I asked about my first miscarriage and he assured me that everything looks fine, but that basically you never know. Thanks doc!
Back to my apology. Every night I sit with laptop in hand and try to muster the energy to read through all of my favorite blogs. Kristen, GGC, Chelle, Nicole, Christina, CMHL, Mom-101, Izzy, HBM, Domesticator, Jaime, JuliaBohemian, Chicky Baby, Sandra, Mrs. Fortune, Sunshine Scribe, Jana, Mommy Off the Record, Mama of 2, MIM, Meg, and everyone else on my blogroll that I am too lazy to type in right now; I have not been visiting you lately because all I can do is curl up on the couch and pray that this sick feeling goes away. I have not had the energy to do ANYTHING. Seriously, my house is a mess, the laundry is piling up and I fell asleep today while my daughter watched a video. Bad mommy, but I am beat! Just know that I am thinking about you every night and wondering what fantastic stories I am missing out on.
Between working and taking care of a 3 year-old, I feel like I am 65 years old. The nausea begins at sun up and continues until sundown. I get a few quick breaks but there's a constant knot in my throat. This sucks people!! How am I going to make it through the next few weeks?
So if you haven't seen me updating or commenting on your blog, don't get mad, don't forget about me, I am probably just dozing off in a corner somewhere. I will be back to normal soon (I hope!) I hope everyone who is going to BlogHer has a fabulous time and I can't wait to read all the stories.
Oh, and my contest over at Lollipop is almost over. The deadline is July 30 so if you're interested in winning a really great book, stop over and submit your essay. I've gotten some really great entries so far.