My Life as a Single Mom

My husband started his second job yesterday. He was gone from 8 in the morning until 11 last night. I was asleep when he left and when he got home too.

He's going to be working 4 days a week to help with the bills. Well, that's not exactly the truth. He just recently bought a motorcycle so job #2 is paying for that.

When he told me he wanted one I said, "no way in hell." He kept asking and asking and finally I said, "if you go out and get another job, then you can get a bike," not in a million years thinking he would actually do it.

You see, I am not working right now and we are struggling on one income. We knew it would be this way though because I just had a baby. So before Lil J was born, we talked about him getting another job to pick up the slack. He agreed but months and months went by and nothing ever materialized. I don't think he even looked. Apparently he'll do anything for a motorcycle because when I told him to go get another job, he had one the next day.

He will still be bringing in extra money for the family, it just says a lot about where his priorities are. I don't know why I keep waiting for him to grow up, it just ain't gonna happen.

Anyway, I was so stressed yesterday. Big J had preschool in the morning so it worked out fine. I went food shopping and tried to get the baby to nap in the car seat. She's not big on naps. I don't know what it is. Actually, I do. She wants to be held. At least, I think that's what it is. She's 8 weeks old for pete's sake. She needs to nap, but she usually wakes up after 10 or 20 minutes. Now I know some of you are going to say, "my baby never napped." We're talking about a 2 month old though. I refuse to believe that she doesn't need to sleep during the day.

Some people have said to me, "hey, maybe it's better that she doesn't sleep during the day. She'll sleep better at night." I don't believe that. She's too young not to be napping.

So when Big J came home from preschool it was tricky trying to get Lil J to nap in the afternoon. I spent 4 hours trying to get that little shit to sleep. I sang to her, I played music, I gave her the pacifier, I rocked her, I put her on her belly, anything I could think of. She just wasn't having it. After about an hour I picked her up and tried feeding her. She barely ate and was falling asleep in my arms. So I know she's tired, but she just doesn't know how to settle herself I guess.

I refuse to spend the time rocking and bouncing and doing all that. I can't do it anyway because Big J needs me too. Just when I think Lil J is asleep or ready to drift off, I hear the other one yelling, "Mommy!!"

The night was the hardest because Lil J is tired around the time I put Big J to bed to it's hard keeping her happy while I'm reading Big J stories and hounding her to brush her teeth and get her pj's on.

By the end of the night I had a terrible migraine. This is not going to be fun.


The Picture of Perfection

Is there anything more beautiful in this world?


Are Siblings Ever In Sync?

My husband and daughter just got back from Disneyworld late last night. He took J on vacation for a week while I got to spend some special one on one time with my new baby girl.

It was so great. Little J was sleeping good and she was happy as a clam. I really thought she had turned a corner and would maybe give me more than 3 hours of sleep at a time. Ha ha, I should know better!!

Little J is going through something I just can't figure out. I think it's her tummy. She's fussy and gassy and generally not happy. I called the doc and he said to try switching her formula. Right now she's on soy and he said try Gentlease, which is a reduced lactose formula. It's supposed to reduce fussiness and gas.

Well, it didn't work! She vomited, big time. Needless to say, I'm sticking with the soy. I just can't figure it out though. Right now she's sleeping next to me, but who knows what the night will bring.

On the other hand, my devil in disguise has been an angel all day. Why can't they ever be on the same page? Both children happy - is that too much to ask? Anyway, I'm off to bed. I only got 4 hours last night. I have a feeling tonight won't be much better.