5.11.2008

BSM: Beautiful Girl

I hope you all had a wonderful Mother's Day. Mine was pretty lonely. I worked from 11 until 4 so most of my day was spent away from my children.

On the drive to work I did have time to reflect a little on my journey into motherhood. It's been a rocky road, both painful and wonderful at the same time. I've struggled with guilt and depression. I've felt inadequate and frustrated. I've felt lonely and confused.

But I've also felt loved. Unconditionally loved. My children are my world. Today I looked at Julianna and just stared into her eyes. I was searching for the words to tell her just how much I love her and I couldn't do it. Words simply can't convey how I feel about my girls. My heart aches for them. In a good way. In a very good way. I want to hold them forever.

I didn't get to take any pictures this weekend because I was working. I'm actually pretty bummed about it because I wanted to get one of me and my girls for Mother's Day, but no such luck. Instead, my best shot is of my 4 year-old. Julianna is getting ready to celebrate a big birthday soon. Next month she will turn 5. I can't believe how quickly time has passed. My baby is no longer a baby. She'll be heading to Kindergarten in the fall. Ahhh!

9 comments:

Sara said...

She is beautiful! Kindergarten is a big step!

Christina said...

She is beautiful. As are your reflections on motherhood.

emily said...

She is just beautiful! Look at those eyes.

Jaimee said...

kindergarten? Yikes! She is absolutely beautiful!

Christine said...

What a beautiful picture. She's just lovely. :)

natalie said...

What a beautiful girl! It is so hard to put into words how we feel about our children, isn't it?

Maggie said...

What a great shot of her -- such gorgeous eyes!

kim said...

She's beautiful! My Lauren's going to be 5 next month, too. I've got mixed feelings about Kindergarten. I'm so excited for her...but I know I'll be missing her like crazy.

Melinda Zook said...

Gorgeous, just gorgeous. Isn't it amazing how much you can love someone? I always think that when I look at them. I am sure they can see it in the way you are with the though, words are not always necessary.