2.01.2006

Guilt: My Constant Companion

I knew having a baby would be a roller coaster of emtions - fear, anxiety, pride, and joy. What I wasn't prepared for was an overwhelming sense of guilt! It rules my life. I feel guilty when I discipline her. I feel guilty when I leave her and go to work. I feel guilty when she cries. I feel guilty about not always enjoying my role as a mother.

Guilt is such a powerful tool, too. It gets my daughter a second cup of chocolate milk. It buys her extra Christmas presents. The only good part is that it usually results in lots and lots of hugs and kisses.

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