3.26.2008

Disappointment

I'm a little bummed with myself. A few weeks back I signed up for a writing class. I was hoping it would kick start things for me, get me back into a writing groove, and it didn't work.

Things have just been so hectic around here that I let it slide and I didn't even hand in the last few assignments. I just don't have the desire anymore.

I took the class as a last ditch effort to drum up some motivation as far as writing goes, but it's just not there anymore. It's actually been more of a burden, just another thing I feel guilty about. So I've decided, once and for all, to finally stop freelancing and to put all of my energy into my photography.

It feels kinda good to let it go, to actually say it (or write it) out loud. Because writing is something that I've been doing since I graduated college, I felt like that was my only talent. For a time I felt like that was what I was supposed to be doing. Don't get me wrong I still love to write, but not on a deadline. I'll just continue to write for me. To record the things that are special to me.

On that note, I'm going to start another blog. I decided that since I'm going to focus on my photography and all the things it takes to start a business that it might be fun to document it all. As it stands now, no one knows about this blog. Not my husband, not my mother, not even my twin sister. I wanted a place to write about things that are personal to me and I didn't want to worry about being judged. It's one thing to have strangers read about my life, but I felt like I would always be holding back if my family was reading.

So, the photography blog will be something they can all take part in. I'm going to work on getting it set up by the end of the week. I'd like to document my journey from here on out. I hope you'll join me!! I'll let you know the link as soon as it's ready.

And now for this week's Thursday Theme: Collections. I would like you to come check out my portfolio building set on Flickr. It's a collection of photos that I think are pretty good. Some are of my girls and some are not. I hope you'll leave me some feedback. What can I do better?

7 comments:

Ms. Porter said...

i really think the fact that you are persuing your photography full time is amazing and clearly it's where you feel the passion the most. good for you, keep up the drive! as for you blog, i will definitely follow...i've been reading you blog for a really long time...even when you took your super long break! One quick question...how did you manage to keep everyone from reading it and did you live in 'fear' that they might discover it? I'm struggling with this myself...there is only a few people who know I have my blog yet I'm still scared to let myself freely say what i want.

Meg said...

I think it's a great idea to put all your hear into photography and leave the writing behind. Like you said, you still blog, so you have a creative writing outlet. But I can tell your true passion is in taking pictures.

My family doesn't read my blog, either. I feel the same way you do. My husband knows I have one, but doesn't read it. Let me know the link to your new blog. I love your pictures and could always stand to learn more about photography!

Maggie said...

Beautiful shots!

And good luck with your new adventure!

Killlashandra said...

What a cutie! Great smile. Good luck with the photography. :)

Head Gaggler said...

Great shots!! Love them all. You have talent. Good luck with the biz.

Golightly said...

I know that I'm more creative when I don't have deadlines. Sounds like a natural transition to make, though. I look forward to your new blog - I know how you feel about just wanting to write for yourself sometimes without the eyes of family.

Stacy said...

I think you are heading down the right path for you. If you don't enjoy writing anymore and it's just another burden, then stop. Do what you enjoy, and that seems to be photography.

If you want some real critique, go join the ilovephotography.com forums and post some shots for critique. Just have your hard hat on, and don't take things personally. I have learned so much over there.

You have some good stuff in your Flickr set! Things to watch - underexposure, chopped limbs, motion blur, color balance, oversaturation of colors (not printable).